Ma vie, mes amours, mon histoire.
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Only Heart
by John Mayer
Do not waste this evening
Baby I'm begging you
Your big imagination's playing it's tricks on you
If you think my up and leaving's something I'm
gonna do
Feel my chest when I look at you
Baby, you
You got my only heart
Yeah, you got my only heart
Yeah, you got my only
Only heart
It's so hard to be so far out
Livin' our seperate lives
Your phone was really broken
I tried your number twice
And if you need conformation, baby I understand
It's alright if you want me to
Tell you, you
You got my only heart
Yeah, you got my only heart
Yeah, you got my only
Only heart
And you love like your hand's on thehorn, baby
I adore you but there's a hole in the cup that should
hold your love
If you let me leave
I swear I never will
Remember now you
You got my only heart
Yeah, you got my only heart
Yeah, you got my only heart
Yeah, you got my only heart.
college isn't so bad.
life isn't so depressing.
and all that seems to happen.
is that i smile each time i look at you.
crazy how luv finds you when your not looking.
cause baby, im crazy in luv.
in luv with your laugh,
wild hair,
amazing personality.
crazy how luv finds you when your not looking.
cause baby, im crazy in luv.
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
(Fuck It) I Don't Want U Back
by Eamon
woooaaa
hoooooo
no no no
See I don't.. know why I like you so much..
I gave ya all of my trust I told you.. I loved you
now its all down the drain you put me through a pain
I wanna let you know how I feel
Chorus:
fuck what I saidit don't mean shit now
fuck the presents might as well throw em' out
fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
fuck you, you hoe I don't want you back
fuck what I said it don't mean shit now
fuck the presents might as well throw em' out
fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
fuck you, you hoe I don't want you back
You thought you could keep this shit from me.. yeah
you burned bitch I heard the story
you played me you even gave him head
now your asking for me back
your just another hack
look else were cause your done with me
Chorus:
fuck what I said it don't mean shit now
fuck the presents might as well throw em' out
fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
fuck you, you hoe I don't want you back
fuck what I said it don't mean shit now
fuck the presents might as well throw em' out
fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
fuck you, you hoe I don't want you back
oww oww uh huh yeah
oww oww uh huh yeah
oww oww uh huh yeah
oww oww uh huh yeah
your question did I care?
you can ask anyone
I even said you were my great one
now its i'm over
but I do amit i'm sad it hurts real bad
I can't sweat that cause i loved a hoe
Chorus:
fuck what I said it don't mean shit now
fuck the presents might as well throw em' out
fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
fuck you, you hoe I don't want you back
oww oww uh huh yeah
oww oww uh huh yeah
oww oww uh huh yeah
oww oww uh huh yeah
oww oww uh huh yeah
oww oww uh huh yeah
(keep saying it till the end)
so freakin excited
im so freakin excited. my bestes bestes bestes friend EVER is coming to visit me this weekend. i can't friggin wait.
oh friday oh friday, come here soon!
Monday, February 23, 2004
Sunday, February 22, 2004
Monday, February 16, 2004
so unhappy
so im totally unhappy. and im not even sure why. everything is going just fine.
but im totally unhappy. theres just something missing from my life. i don't now what it is and why its bothering me so much. all the holli and hunter bullshit is over and im working on getting another job. which is great! but im not happy.
maybe sleep will help. probably not though. maybe ill talk to people tomorrow. probably not though.
Thursday, February 12, 2004
made me think of jacob
Desperately
by Michelle Branch
Ooohh, whoa.
Something about the way you looked at me,
Made me think for a moment
That maybe we were meant to be.
Living our lives separately.
And it's strange cause things change,
when i've been wanting you...
So Desperately.
Ohhh, why can't I ignore it.
Yeah, I keep giving in,
But I should know better,
Cause there was something about the way you looked at me.
And it's strange cause things change,
when ive been wanting you...
So Desperately.
You came up to me and said "You frustrate me".
Thinking of lines and times where you and I were you and me.
We took our chance out on the street.
And I missed my chance and chances are I won't be coming back to you.
Why can't I ignore it.
I keep giving in but I should know better.
Cause there's something about the way you looked at me.
And it's strange cause things change,
when ive been wanting you.
So Desperately...
So desperately...
Ohhh, why can't I ignore it.
Yeah, I keep giving in,
But I should know better.
Cause there was something about the way you looked at me.
And it's strange cause things change,
when ive been wanting you.
So desperately...
So desperately...
Back to you it,
It always comes around,
Back to you...
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
I Miss You
by Blink 182
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
the shadow in the background of the morgue
the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
we can live like Jack and Sally if we want
where you can always find me
we'll have Halloween on Christmas
and in the night we'll wish this never ends
we'll wish this never ends
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
this sick strange darkness
comes creeping on so haunting every time
and as I stared I counted
webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
I miss him. Didn't think i would, didn't want to. But i know that i do. I miss the way he makes me laugh and how he laughs at my jokes even if their not funny. I miss the way he looks without his shirt on and how he always has his cowboy hat with him. I miss how much he turned me on at the sight of him and how he was the perfect kisser. I miss his eyes, his intense eyes. I miss him banging on his car and being the skater cowboy. Odd combination, but i swear, it worked for him. I miss sitting in my car and wanting to just jump on him. I miss sitting in my car and wondering what it was that he was thinking.
I remember the 6 hours in his PT Cruiser. I remember how he smelled, a mix of cigarettes and cologne. I remember how he tasted. I remember his apartment and how we destroyed it. His roommate calling him asking what happened that night. How i just laughed at the thought of him. The things he did and how he just acted like himself all the time. I remember our last night together. I remember the way he touched me and the way he felt. I remember how i felt and how i loved to just be next to him. To just have him there was extascy.
I don't miss him being controlled by what his friends said. I don't miss him never being honest with me. How he always felt he had to hide things from me, like i couldn't handle the truth. I don't miss how i felt when i found out he had a girlfriend. How it made me cry. How much it affected me without me ever realizing it. I knew then that i never wanted that to happen again. How that did happen again and how it hurt, but just not as much. Trevor taught me to enjoy life daily. To laugh at everything and to look at the world through a country boys eyes. He taught me about cars, but most of it i can't remember. He taught me to have patience, but to be guarded. He taught me that im much stronger than i thought, and that i don't have to be so prissy all the time. He taught me to have hope in the things that i want for myself. I will miss him. I do miss him.
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Monday, February 02, 2004
good day
had a decent day. still a little depressed from recent events. but im tough. though i don't show it as much as i should. But im not as tough as id like to be. I still cry at the end of really sappy hopeless romantic movies. Yes, i did tear up at Win A Date With Tad Hamilton. But i promise, no hard core tears like Moulin Rouge. I still let things get to me more than i should. And i definitly am a, What If? person. Don't really have much else to say. Just that im really tired and i miss being in love more than anything else. Maybe im just emotional cause its the month of love, and ive never had anyone on this day. Though most of the holiday has nothing to do with why Valentine's Day exists. It would be nice to indulge in that for once. Maybe next year will be better. This year has turned out to be a depressing one so far. Sweet dreams all. Hope yours are better than mine.
Sunday, February 01, 2004
A good song
Through With You
by Maroon 5
Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying "I love you"
Has nothing to do with meaning it
And I don't trust you
Cause Every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think that you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Do you remeber
The way we used to melt
Do you remember how it felt
When I touched you, oh
Cause I remember very well
And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you
And at night when you sleep
Do you dream I would be there
Just for a minute or two do you?
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Heartache heartache I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do
it happened again
remember how i said that i fall for guys who want someone else. well it happened again. he chose the other girl. but this time, im not hurt half as much as last time. Just more pissed.
