long time
so its been awhile. obviously. but i haven't had much to say. nothing of real importance. i really have nothing important to say still, but i thought it was time to write.
i wanted to write something about kevin. no, not diana's kevin, my kevin. my ohio boy, who i miss so much. But thankfully, have gotten over him a great deal since the last time i say or talked to him. but thats another story on how that came, tee hee, about. i just wanted it written down that i really liked him and yes, maybe even had a version of love for him. But i was more falling in love with him, not truly in love with him, it was just comfortable to say that i was. i miss being in love with someone. it seems that everyone around has found someone and i just don't get that chance to be with someone constantly. charlotte, you always seem to have on, as holli seems to as well. and its not a bad thing, im happy that someone out there gets to be happy being with someone. but why am i cursed? why am i only alloted one boyfriend, once a year, at around the same time every year. why? i know i do things wrong in a relationship, but i do right by the guys as well. i am a good girlfriend. im not perfect. but i learn what makes people happy and thats what i give them. but oh well.
i just wanted to write down that i did all i could to make kevin happy and in the end, he just pissed me off like all boyfriends do. i wish i could stay his friend, but my anger will not allow me to do so. and i am sorry for that. extremely sorry. maybe one day well be friends again. hopefully.

i hope all of you are doing well. i miss talking to ya charlotte and hope your doing great!
- posted by Jen84 @ 6:37 PM