you ever have those days were you just wanna die. well today is mine. i got in another car crash and that just shot my nerves. i don't have a car and won't for who knows how long. im so lonely. i needed a friend really badly and i have noone. my best friend holli doesn't even want to hang out with me because of the convienient excuse that she didn't have a car. wtf? if she just got in a car wreck i would be right there by her side making her feel better. but im not good enough for that. im just not that good of a friend. shes always leaving me out of things and never returns my calls. so im done. im done being nice. im done wishing for something that isn't there. she will easily find another best friend, of that i have no doubt. as for me, ill be fine. i always am. but ill never have another best friend. i don't want one. as much as i want a best friend/boyfriend im fine being alone. it suits me well. im good at keeping to myself and just letting the world pass me by. its the easiest thing to do. i keep out of peoples way and they keep out of mine. i don't owe anybody anything and they owe me nothing. its the perfect plan. so to those of you i do talk to, enjoy your life. live it to the fullest and love deeply. i hope your turns out better than mine did.
- posted by Jen84 @ 9:59 PM